Sunday, January 18, 2009

Feeling so grateful today!


Feeling so grateful today! I am just so happy to know that having children is a blessing in life! I am grateful to be able to carry children and to raise them. I am so grateful to know; that to have a special gift like Porter is a blessing and an honor not a burden! I am grateful for their health; and their knowledge of the savior! I love the way they pray without someone having to whisper in their ear…a prayer from them at dinner……: I thank you Jesus for mommy, daddy, my brohders (brothers) lol thank you for my food it goes in my tummy, thank you for church and my monster truck in da name of Jesus Christ Amen. Your turn! …..lol I am grateful for their love for their scriptures what they call “my special book from Jesus!”

I am grateful for my husbands love and support of my efforts to go back to school! He has done nothing but try and support me and offer more ideas, with such pure love. I love the way he holds our baby and looks into his eyes with such love. I am grateful for the way he is trying more every day to teach and above all to learn from Porter and his wonderful gifts. I am grateful for the way he so roughly and lovingly plays with Keaton.

I am grateful for family! My mom and her efforts to love me more each day despite all my flaws! Her heart which is full of forgiveness for all the pain that I have caused inadvertently or not. I love her for not giving up! Despite the thoughts that were drilled into me I know mom you never gave up! I love you! I love the way you were there for me this past year for a heart ache I never thought would be a heartache! I always have and always will need you!

I am grateful for my Dad! My dad he is a special man! I am so grateful for the way he opened his heart and his home to me. To give me the greatest gift anyone can ever give… his name! I am so grateful that he felt in his heart to adopt me! I am grateful to be sealed in the Temple to my parents… my mom and my dad! I am grateful my children will have such an amazing Grandfather! A true roll model! I hope they grow up to be half the man you are! I love you Dad!

I am grateful for my brother!! He always knew me even when I didn’t know him! He has grown up to be a great man! I look forward to getting to know him better each day! I love you Rando!

I am grateful for my in-laws! The love and understanding they all have! First my husbands siblings. They are so great all their support through the difficult times of raising such a special child, they were always there and without judgment! Thank you for the support and babysitting! J My mother and father in law… well they are pretty great too! I am grateful for their support when we need it and when we think we don’t need it even though we do! I am grateful they still answer my daily phone calls of questions! J I am grateful for the son they raised my husband and my children’s father. Thank you for believing in us and being there for us with out judgment or fault!

To my friends: Well I am grateful to have friends who can see me for me and can be so supportive! For being their when I am crying looking for some guidance and support. I am so grateful to have some really true friends… who can see the good in me and my family! Those friends who don’t rub salt into open wounds! Instead they try to mind them and care for them! I love the way so many of you have stuck up for me and stuck by my side! I am grateful you can see over my faults and help me to be better!

Today I am grateful! I whish I can see this everyday and be grateful for what Heavenly Father has blessed me with! I am grateful the Lord has given me the gift to carry children and the gift to raise them. I am grateful for whatever it is the Lord saw in me to bless me with the honor to have a child that has autism. I am grateful Heavenly Father gave to me; a beautiful family!

1 comment:

ForeverSarahLee said...

I am SO glad to have read this. I think realizing your blessing and being GRATEFUL is a great thing to have. Too many people take the little things & the people in their lives for granted. For sure! I love you SO much Amanda. Always have. You will always be one of my BETTER friends, and I too am SO grateful for you. You always "had my back" and wanted nothing but the best for me. I remember you telling me to find the one who treated me like a Princess. And I never realized just how true those words were. I had a tendency of selling myself short, settling. No more! And I hope that makes you proud. Lol! I am SO grateful that YOU get to be a mom, to have a loving home & an amazing family of your own. That, in & of itself, is a great blessing babe. Never think otherwise! I love you girl! Hope you feel well & have a good weekend! Tell Ben I said hello. Hopefully next year will be better for our Broncos! :o)